I HATE MY SELFagain...

I HATE MY SELF

again and again

I am worthless person

really be.

he ask me to change my self

what the fuck i should do ?

just only go to his house before 9 AM ??

ONLY THAT ???

I don't believe , you know..

again and again

to make him believe

i tried

and

again and again

to say  " calm down plzzz "

I know he's boring me
and it's not fun to stay with me

so I think he gonna broke up with me one day or soon.

b'cuz

he can't tell me anything  anything
if he'll start to speak I will be crazy and cry

OK

the girl is always cry when they're sad
and I really sensitive , that's my habit
not quote

but it's true

and you see
Did you know what the fuck that you told me is hurt ?

 " I cannot broke up with you b'cuz you always threat you  "

yeah , and you think why I have to threat ?

that's b'cuz of

you are always THREAT me
you also threat !!

and what you threat is very bad for me


you alway count

1

2

3

to make me say anything before you finish counting

and using the word like GU , MEUNG

( I hate it )

you always think i will afraid and cry
like i afraid to be bad character and i try to run away from my mistake by CRY

but it's not

actually I feel hurt

about what you said

you really don't care about my feeling

and what I have done

it's not mistake so much


and when I said I will hurt my self
you know i never think before that i will do someday
now i did it

try to hurt my self to get pain
pain more and more
because what you tell me is make me pain
you want me to feel it then i help to get pain
so you will not tired to extort me


and maybe it's only way to hold you back.


if you don't really love me like you said , plz go

just leave me alone

and  don't care what i'm gonna feel after

think about your self is enough

 I LOVE YOU AND REALLY CARE ABOUT U
YOUR FEELING
CARE YOU EVERYTHING
CARE WHAT IS MAKE YOU ANGRY SO BETTER DON'T TELL
AND CARE WHAT IS MAKE YOU FEEL BORED ABOUT ME
AND I KNOW YOU BORED ME
YOU BORED ME EVERYTHING
BECAUSE DON"T HAVE ANYTHING
I DON"T HAVE ANYTHING TO INTERESTING
NO SOMETHING INTERESTING IN ME
I AM STUPID AND BITCH
ALWAYS SPEAK SOMETHING ANNOY AND BORED
I A M NOT GOOD LOOKING AND FAT
I A M LAZY AND DIRTY
SUCK LIFE SUCK MY SELFFFFFFFF

BUT I LOVE U
I DO

O U R IMPORTANT FOR ME

BROKE UP WITH ME
IF U DON"T LOVE ME