11 posts from March 2008

What's the destination of my life ?
What it will be and How ?

...Did you ever dream ?
dream about what you gonna be and what job you will pick..
and how is your family ..or you will get marry or not

I have a dream.
and always imagine about that.

get marry and have baby
find some good job and be good with everybody  .
just very simple life.

and you know I never think about that until I am fall in love .
he taught me many thing and loves taught us so.
 1 year passed , I don't feel regret to spend the time with him.
even we're together not so long but I trust to spend time all of my life with him.

I promise , I will not lie again

FUCK YOU  EVERYBODY

I had been feeling blue so a long time and like it's never stop.
sometime they're really good for me
but now I had know that actually they're not truly.

only someone that really care about me
and can hold me when i am feel sad
I just want someone to be with me no matter what happen .

Do I can trust someone now ?

I thought that's hurt enough to be hope again

now , I still finding my place that can comfort  me.

Today i got the old picture of my bf.
I'm feel so bad when i saw the file name ,it was his ex.girlfriend's name .

why he never do like that with me ?
omg , i feel so jealous!
even i know that is the part that already past ..
but i feel really jealous this girl.

what the point that make he love her so much.
I really want to know about it.

the thing that i know from him
is really sweet ...even i don't wanna know the story between theme.
but i still ask him.

because many time it just like he didn't care about my feeling.
or enterprising ...something with me.

like our  relationship is stop on what he want it to be..

I so tried to think and feel jealous alone.
why don't he ask me ?
what I'm thinking !

I mean ..just ask me ..comfort me
don't be angry and  quarrel with me

you know what
i'm tried and bored to tell you i love you
and i know you bored about it!!

but i wanna make sure that you are mine
only me and will nt leave me alone
just only that

but some word from you it not make me believe

sometime you're so mean and cruel

please , love only me and most of the girl that you ever met.
 

I hate the thing that happened to me !!
I hate the story that i have to accept it !!

I hate all of my fucking family people !

why they're do like this to me ?

They really don't care about me .

you son of the bitch!!

I am the one who always WRONG

yeah , I am bad person.
so.... don't care me if  i run away someday.

ugly hair color...
in the top is light ...and dark in the bottoms...(T w T'')
anyway , some people said  that is like new fashion ...or style
am i look fashionable girl ??? Hahaha

AGAIN and AGAIN

I'm stupid girl.

What's the problem between us ?

.......
...................

.....what ever ..

I will try my best ... just wanna be with him for so long.

now , I decide to make chocolate before White day.
(I give only present and card  in valentine day )
I had fell many time to did it
 they're really look like shit (T__T'' )




I just wanna make a good memory between us much that i can.
even the last he left me...and it's really hurt.
but I feel good to do what i want .

Jesus , I really broke up with him ??
If not now...may be soon .

I think i am not good enough for him
and maybe he like another girl.

I'm so ugly and fat
so he don't want to pick me go to some place
and find another beautiful girl and feel really shame
why i am so ugly

Finally , we broke up because I am bloody fool
stupid , ugly , nonsense , dirty , fat , not cute , bad

nothing good

I HATE MY SELF

broke up


all it's  from shit story

that  will not make anyone broke up easily .

why ? i have to broke up with him.

and why my friend do about this shit to me..

why he never stop talking about this shit story...



maybe because


I'm worthless person


that no one care me


!! I HATE MY SELF !!

boring....
about this fucking life
sometime is like everything become good.
but it's not....

..Can anyone stop complain me ..?
I didn't do something wrong , if i am i will not angry .
and say sorry.

but this is not my fault !

everything that you give to me is problem
you want me to do this this this this and this........
that's too much.

you really not understand me

THAT'S TOO MUCH

I'm tired
about follow your order and hear scold word...
please enough ..

I really want to be good for you
don't try to kill me this way.

... no have choice for me ...

scold = my heart is broken

How much I feel pity of sick cats..
they have virus
though I trier my best that i can...
but someone bitch ...she said she's angry  .
" when I am there no one sick "
fuck you

I really hate kinda like this

they have virus ..
how I can do ?? you want me to die for theme ?

do not try to be god person and say something that want my father to be happy.
almost of broken story in my family is from you.